{Pretending is a great part of our lives, to go through our lives; we have to pretend that everything is great when its just good. We pretend we are fine when we just feel otherwise. Its not so bad, one day u will believe it and no longer have to pretend. Well thats the lie I tell my self, so one day I’d believe it .}
Over you
Half decade have passed,
Still your name provokes a tear
And your image,
reopens the wounds
Wounds never had the chance to heal,
Still fresh glistering in pain
Thought by now,
It would be cleared
Thought your loss,
Just a black cloud in my horizon
Turns out that it’s just another dream
I rely on, to sleep through the night
To awake the next day,
For the reality that you no more here
My life conveys another reality
revealing a frontier I’ve build,
To conceal the despair I live in
Portraying a blissful life,
I only had with you around
With time promises were made,
That pain will decrease,
& the wounds would be healed
My grief would have reached an end,
And the mourning would be over
But none have came through
Just as the promise, that you’d be here today
Have failed to be fulfilled
Living a lie, believing it would be over
No man nor time, can take away this sorrow
Thinking I will be over you in years time,
Just another miserable lie I believe in
Avoiding thinking about you,
Keeps the sadness away of my eyes
But its there under the lids
Just to have clear eyes,
Not filled with tears
I occupy my self with daily matters
I’m never over you,
Though I thrive to be
To end my misery,
As your life span have ended
But the sorrow keeps on growing
And the wounds keeps widening
With no remedy to rely on
11 October 2004
