the absurdity of my significance

My life isn’t of my making

 It’s not my own to destroy

I am an extension of existence

 I occupy a space in time

I live as I breathe,

I die as I cease …

15 oct 12

13 years

Between the colored lines, 

the grey shadows emerge

In the silence of night,

the forgotten truth creeps out

for a moment, we had lost count

it is as many as it ever was

it should have been remarkable 

yet it slipped the mind 

for guilt is not for the shameless 

 as fear has escaped the soul 

no compass nor conscious 

 a shell of what once was 

it was spent in banter 

 it was spent with no recall 

it must been monumental 

 that it was not 

As much as i loved you, 

 is as much you weren't 

it is the simplest truth 

 yet a lump in the throat

29 June 2012 

sometimes you do not want more than what you have for you just can't sustain more, and others think its out of fear, but in truth it is the end you only can see

I was happy, I was whole

 in a time where misery prevailed

I was greater than the wind,

 I existed within the storm

Today was the only promise I made,

The moment is all I desired

Then you came,

and brought tomorrow

I wished for more time

 I wanted to make plans

I never had tomorrow,

I never had the hope of time

Now you made me lose today,

 by the worry of tomorrow

Some events might not happen to you alone, you might share it with someone else but none of you can speak of it ever again

There we stood, Hand in hand,
 Not for love but for solace,
 We were young, we were helpless

 We had an unopened umbrella in one hand,
 Whilst the rain pounded down, soaking us both
 As the lights flickered green,we stood still

 We were together, we were there
 Our tears blurred with the rain,
 In silence we crossed the lanes