sometimes you do not want more than what you have for you just can't sustain more, and others think its out of fear, but in truth it is the end you only can see

I was happy, I was whole

 in a time where misery prevailed

I was greater than the wind,

 I existed within the storm

Today was the only promise I made,

The moment is all I desired

Then you came,

and brought tomorrow

I wished for more time

 I wanted to make plans

I never had tomorrow,

I never had the hope of time

Now you made me lose today,

 by the worry of tomorrow

Some events might not happen to you alone, you might share it with someone else but none of you can speak of it ever again

There we stood, Hand in hand,
 Not for love but for solace,
 We were young, we were helpless

 We had an unopened umbrella in one hand,
 Whilst the rain pounded down, soaking us both
 As the lights flickered green,we stood still

 We were together, we were there
 Our tears blurred with the rain,
 In silence we crossed the lanes

a world

We might share the air, the land, the resources, the world but surely we each have our own views, life is perception.

At times i look, and see a world no other sees
the moon looks worrisome, and the sun looks blinded
i see spirits in metal structures, i see dullness in tree shadows

how come i smell stench in flowers,
and smell life from gas stations

i don't see the depth in you eyes,
i can't see your soul, your smile confuses me
and your truth stuns me

in a life of contradictions and complexity
linear paths seem unreal, and honestly is a shifty stranger
do you see what i see, do we share the same world?

My Eleven

{Ever wishes that they could go back to a certain moment and live it forever. As it held so much joy and smiles with no angoy or despair. yet we know there is more to come and fortunes that we need to endure the destiny to reach, but i would have gladly had my time ended then and there, but for now all i can do is write of my despairs, as i can not live them out, as i need to live with a smile, and inspire and muse others}


Lets return,
To a time, when happiness
Was effortless

A Time,
When troubles, were mysterious
Strangers

Lets stop,
As we recognize pain, and die
Before we endure

Eleven,
A time, before the final hour
Where it all ends

7 February 2006
Noaf

My Happy Possibilities

{People of faith and high moral often see Cloning as a taboo, and we should not go near it. yet i do not believe so, but to the contrary i believe its what we need to do.}

A Deadly Sin some might declare
Playing God, when we are merely humane
Challenging faith and fate, other will accuse
Creating life of what had been, is merely reproducing

Those who try, shall be outcastes and disgraced by all
When knowledge is given, its not to be hidden or preserved
We preach to share and care about our fellow man
But when we reach out with a second chance, we are shun

A happy possibility we shall provide,
A chance of another go, to set it all right
A happy Possibility we shall promise,
Where nothing is impossible and all got a go

Noaf
18 August 2006

Pretend

{Pretending is a great part of our lives, to go through our lives; we have to pretend that everything is great when its just good. We pretend we are fine when we just feel otherwise. Its not so bad, one day u will believe it and no longer have to pretend. Well thats the lie I tell my self, so one day I’d believe it .}

Over you

Half decade have passed,
Still your name provokes a tear
And your image,
reopens the wounds
Wounds never had the chance to heal,
Still fresh glistering in pain

Thought by now,
It would be cleared
Thought your loss,
Just a black cloud in my horizon
Turns out that it’s just another dream
I rely on, to sleep through the night
To awake the next day,
For the reality that you no more here

My life conveys another reality
revealing a frontier I’ve build,
To conceal the despair I live in
Portraying a blissful life,
I only had with you around

With time promises were made,
That pain will decrease,
& the wounds would be healed
My grief would have reached an end,
And the mourning would be over

But none have came through
Just as the promise, that you’d be here today
Have failed to be fulfilled

Living a lie, believing it would be over
No man nor time, can take away this sorrow
Thinking I will be over you in years time,
Just another miserable lie I believe in

Avoiding thinking about you,
Keeps the sadness away of my eyes
But its there under the lids
Just to have clear eyes,
Not filled with tears
I occupy my self with daily matters

I’m never over you,
Though I thrive to be
To end my misery,
As your life span have ended
But the sorrow keeps on growing
And the wounds keeps widening
With no remedy to rely on

11 October 2004